I'm a Mormon

I'm a mormon
and I've been wondering whether I should tell you so
because it comes with an identity and labels
many of which ring true
many of which I refuse to stand for
many of which I lay at night wondering if that's the person I am

I'm a mormon
a woman, a human, a person
with layer and depth
though i feel like I'm being crammed in a 2 dimensional expectation

I'm a mormon
and every tony is a slap in the face
every tony helps me find introspection
every tony is a champion of stereotype

I'm a mormon
the rhetoric of homosexual repression
the epitome of philanthropic hypocrisy
a racist, a polygamist, a bigot

i'm a mormon
and i'm trying to hard to serve
looking for ways to understand others
trying my best to make this life worth something

I'm a mormon
and I wonder if each feeling and impression
really is as significant as they say
because I'm starting to think that
I'm really as gullible as everyone thinks

I'm a mormon
and you cannot take away my experience with the divine
those experiences which were tangible
leading to a path of confusion
leading to a path of clarity
filled with love, filled with love

I'm a mormon
and it's nice that when i'm all alone in a strange land
that there's always a family there for me
a universal family
filled with love and drama
it wouldn't be a family without it

I'm a catholic
and though conversion means a change of state
I never really left it behind

i'm a mormon
and i can honestly say I'm a better person because of it
I don't feel like I'm right or wrong
I'm just trying to be a better person
trying.